“Lovingly arrive at His feet.” – as seen on a Christian blog I latched on to this, knowing surrender was my weak spot and control was my best skill. But I wanted the peace that I saw so many others have. I wanted the graceful surrender and was up for the practice. So I set off thinking that this letting go would feel good. “Lovingly arrive at his feet” Ok. With love. With grace. With patience. I imagined I would learn to let go easily. I would learn to let go like I learned to say “mama.” It would just happen. I imagined I would learn to let go delicately, to be caught in strong arms. I was caught and His arms were strong, but it was not [...]

The music seemed to rise from the blades of grass. It moved in the sunlight that shone on Camden's streets and flooded our open windows and doorways. It danced with the breeze. Memorial Day had arrived, and the world cried out in joy. Its soundtrack was reggaeton.  The familiar beat accompanied by unfamiliar words began around 9 a.m. and continued throughout the day. I could hear it from my bed, at the kitchen table, by the mailbox at the front door and while I hung clothes from the line in the backyard. It was in the air, it was the air – made audible by a day too beautiful to be contained in silence. "KELLY," my roommate shouted from outside my window. I looked down on the backyard and [...]